cuke15's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- newsgroup post to: alt.religion.christian,alt.religion.christian.teen
Hello. My name is Tim. I am a nineteen year old male from Georgia, USA. I am writing this e-mail for help. It's sort of a desperation type of move, though. I don't even know if I'm in the right place or not. I am looking for someone to listen to me, and not abandon me when I'm being honest. No one to push me down, just someone to be optimistic and set me on the right path. I need someone who can help me make a better change in my life. I had someone like this, but I ended up sleeping with someone else and it really upset her because she liked me a lot. She has since blocked every way I have of communicating with her. This really has hurt me, and it's sad I had to learn the hard way just why premarital sex is a sin. I just want someone who is willing to take me on as a project, and help support me. Be my buddy in Christ, would be a good way to say it. I would prefer a female, since I seem to be able to relate to them better. Someone around my age would be nice as well. I don't want anyone to judge me. I am willing to try anyone out, not just the preferrable girl around my age. I honestly want to get my life on track and I think I might need some more help. I have a history of depression. Lately, before all this happened, my life has been good. Sometimes I get so blinded, though, by all that happens to me that I lose sight of all that I've been given. It's getting to the point where the only thing that keeps me alive is fear of dying. I honestly do want to make things right, but I can't get past this selfishness. I have an amount of problems, and I have trouble getting complete faith. This is why I don't need anyone who is going to judge me, I already know my huge faults right now. I just need someone who is going to help me. Someone who will help me gradually. I've got a sleeping disorder so I'm usually up all night and most part of the day. I'm not trying to be picky, I will take anyone. I just thought I'd throw my preferances down. Beggars can't be choosers. I've come to realize that life is pretty bad lately. I know that life can be good... I beat an addiction which I would rather not discuss in the public of a newsgroup.. but I beat it thanks to help from God. I just feel like there should be some way to keep things going. I realize things are going to get tough sometimes, but I don't want to be the cause of them and I want to get things to the point where I can be happy while doing God's will. I know my problem mostly lies in not having complete faith. Sometimes that seems so impossible to get. As I said, anyone is welcome to respond. I would really enjoy someone who can talk on the phone sometimes. Sometimes that helps me. Anyways, I didn't want to throw this into one long depressing letter. I wanted to just put everything on the line and see if there were any takers. I just don't want another person to run away. Some of the good things about me include: I write in a diary, which is just over 3 years old. I feel like I have an incredible passion for writing. I play guitar, not very well, but I think better than a lot of people. I enjoy helping other people's problems just as much as I complained about mine in this post. I have also been getting good at technology type stuff on the computer. I hope no one fell asleep. Tim I don't check newsgroups often, so I might not get a response if you respond into the newsgroup.. but here are ways to reach me: e-mail: [email protected] MSN: [email protected] yahoo: cuke15 AIM: Afae1 I'll try and check the newsgroup, too, though. Beggars can't be choosers. 2:11 a.m. - 2002-11-18 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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