cuke15's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- post office, single Wee I went to the post office today and sent a money order off so I can get some porn! Woohoo. I atleast have to buy porn once in my life, damnit.. I'll feel better if I do. So yeah.. I rode my bike.. it was hot and my legs hurt because the front tire was fucking flat. I've been up way too long. I'm still smiling from that card. I guess I should explain the whole Jan situation.. well I've been annoyed for a while because, as she is annoyed, becuase we never get to see each other.. but the problem was when we are together we want to do different things. I want to hold and talk.. she wants to do more. Then she got on the notion I was ignoring her, which I wasn't... I just didn't want to be forced into doing anything I didn't want to. What would you have done? Then yesterday Leo and I were talking and she told me about when Sheri asked if she (Jan) wanted to sign my card and she said No and then Sheri asked if we were still together and she rolled her eyes and said "yes".. like she didn't want to go out with me.. but when we're together it's completely different. That just pisses me off, how someone can act two different ways.. and I figured I wasn't giving her what she wanted so I'd make it easy for her to break up with me. I didn't do anything too horribly mean. nothing mean at all actually.. just wasn't affectionate.. so we broke up last night.. and now I'm single and I plan on staying single now. I told her I wish her well and I do. We'll probably still be friends. I don't know. But for now I'm going to enjoy my singleness. There's only one other person I like, excluding Chrissy.. she (the other person) just doesn't think anyone is her type. And as for Chrissy.. even though I like her I don't think I'd go back out with her. I think her and I are having the best relationship we've had in years.. even though we have virtually no contact except for small snippets and random appearances. So it's good that I want to be single. I think it'll be something new for me to experience willingly.. I did for a while in April and May.. but now I actually get to try it out with no interruptions.. but if interruptions come along.. you gotta roll with them. So yeah, there's an explination. I want to actually remember why things turn out the way they do.. so that's why I wrote this. Tim 12:03 p.m. - 2002-08-27 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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